someone please save me!!!!
need major saving somebody- preferably male, single, aged 25-30, muslim...anyone really!! Most people would love to be in my situation but not me. It's not like im hating it but 'i just want a 'simple life'!! I think the more i say it and the more i try and escape being 'career-orientated-dunya-obsessed' the more it gets offered to me on a plate!!A big f***ing platter actuaally!! Alhamdullilah, its just Allah (swt) testing me but i'd rather he tested me in something else- not career-stuff.
The dilemma goes as follows. Finished my degree, happily looking forward to doing my MA in Islamic Banking, Finance and Managament at Markfield Institute, Loughborough. Got myself a nice job in London for the summer in creating a website on Islamic Finance, etc- learning a lot...trying to look for a proper job or potential jobs for after i finish my masters...realised that i have to do 'conventional' finance-type jobs before i venture into the world of Islamic Finance. Ok, that's all fine- i'd just apply to conventional finance firms and work for 2/3 years and then work within Islamic Finance in the middle East or MALAYSIA. This is all good so far. I'm coping with the test... Then i met one of Eco's aunts- she works for Meryll Lynch Fund Derivatives dept. Don't ask me what she does but she just earns alot of money. This is where my dilemma starts- i have now decided to change my masters degree...she advised me to do MA in Banking or International Banking at Loughborough. She said its well renowned and it has a module in Islamic Banking and Finance. Sorted!! Spoke to my dad he was cool with it- he knows how i always do my own thing even if he doesn't approve anyway and somehow (alhamdullilah) always manage to do well.
Then, today at work i spoke to Iqbal (he knows anybody and evrybody in the Islamic Finance world- great contact to have!!). Was telling him my plans when he just eat it, chewed it up and spat it back out!! He recommended me to go do my Masters at Durham University. Issues!! Mehram- which i am lax on when it comes to studying (may Allah forgive me) and money...i know my dad will pay anything just for me to study but i don't want him to!! Plus, i wanna be home...i miss home...i've only been home for a week since after my degree finished! He also said that it would be better to do Actuarial sciences as i have a mathematical background, and then go into creating insurance and takaful products in Islamic Finance. Acturial exams are the hardest exams you can do in finance and it takes an average of 6 years to be qualified- he knows people who did it in 2 years!! The best place to do it is in London Cass Business School- where would i stay? how long for? He said it would be best to work whilst doing it- is he crazy!?!! Where is this simple life i crave?!! The best bit about studying actuary is that he promised that i could work in Malaysia for a whole year...the guy he knows there at a consulting firm is coming in 2 weeks time to the office so will chat to him then. Anyway, hoping i can do this acturial science degree thing in Bham so i can just stay at home...
my biggest issue is that they said they can get funding for me meaning that they are investing so much behind me! I hate all this pressure!! Plus, he said that once i qualify in 3 years time or so Islamic Insurance may take off here so there will only be a few people in Actuary so i will have no competition and be earning thousands- I don't want to earn a big salary. I'm gonna be this big-fly-flying chick that i am trying to avoid. SO someone please marry me asap and 'knock me up' otherwise there is no getting out of this!! Once i'm started on this there's no stopping me... what should i do people?
Eco- i promise not to be an investment banker...and thats it! send the Kashmiri doctor to my parents in September (should be home by 4th Sept unless im working at ABC)
Pants, just pants!!!
The dilemma goes as follows. Finished my degree, happily looking forward to doing my MA in Islamic Banking, Finance and Managament at Markfield Institute, Loughborough. Got myself a nice job in London for the summer in creating a website on Islamic Finance, etc- learning a lot...trying to look for a proper job or potential jobs for after i finish my masters...realised that i have to do 'conventional' finance-type jobs before i venture into the world of Islamic Finance. Ok, that's all fine- i'd just apply to conventional finance firms and work for 2/3 years and then work within Islamic Finance in the middle East or MALAYSIA. This is all good so far. I'm coping with the test... Then i met one of Eco's aunts- she works for Meryll Lynch Fund Derivatives dept. Don't ask me what she does but she just earns alot of money. This is where my dilemma starts- i have now decided to change my masters degree...she advised me to do MA in Banking or International Banking at Loughborough. She said its well renowned and it has a module in Islamic Banking and Finance. Sorted!! Spoke to my dad he was cool with it- he knows how i always do my own thing even if he doesn't approve anyway and somehow (alhamdullilah) always manage to do well.
Then, today at work i spoke to Iqbal (he knows anybody and evrybody in the Islamic Finance world- great contact to have!!). Was telling him my plans when he just eat it, chewed it up and spat it back out!! He recommended me to go do my Masters at Durham University. Issues!! Mehram- which i am lax on when it comes to studying (may Allah forgive me) and money...i know my dad will pay anything just for me to study but i don't want him to!! Plus, i wanna be home...i miss home...i've only been home for a week since after my degree finished! He also said that it would be better to do Actuarial sciences as i have a mathematical background, and then go into creating insurance and takaful products in Islamic Finance. Acturial exams are the hardest exams you can do in finance and it takes an average of 6 years to be qualified- he knows people who did it in 2 years!! The best place to do it is in London Cass Business School- where would i stay? how long for? He said it would be best to work whilst doing it- is he crazy!?!! Where is this simple life i crave?!! The best bit about studying actuary is that he promised that i could work in Malaysia for a whole year...the guy he knows there at a consulting firm is coming in 2 weeks time to the office so will chat to him then. Anyway, hoping i can do this acturial science degree thing in Bham so i can just stay at home...
my biggest issue is that they said they can get funding for me meaning that they are investing so much behind me! I hate all this pressure!! Plus, he said that once i qualify in 3 years time or so Islamic Insurance may take off here so there will only be a few people in Actuary so i will have no competition and be earning thousands- I don't want to earn a big salary. I'm gonna be this big-fly-flying chick that i am trying to avoid. SO someone please marry me asap and 'knock me up' otherwise there is no getting out of this!! Once i'm started on this there's no stopping me... what should i do people?
Eco- i promise not to be an investment banker...and thats it! send the Kashmiri doctor to my parents in September (should be home by 4th Sept unless im working at ABC)
Pants, just pants!!!
posted by PrincessMeMe @ 12:38 pm
11 Comments:
At 7:08 pm,
ecowarrioress said…
i dont understand why your getting so stressed about it, your making a decision abt which masters to do- big deal. just do the Loughborough thing because its in the middle path. (ie- markfield limits scope and acturial (?!?!) sounds too troublesome). This is an outsiders perspective but the options seem like blesings from Allah, not trials and tribulations. speak to mufti if hes an finance expert and talk to him abt career and women and intention issues and going into normal finance with the intention of etc etc... Chill man or else ur eczema will come out. I dont also understand why marriage is such a big issue, ur gona do ur masters now anyway inshallah and get married after that and u can just decide what u want to do AFter that innit!?!?!? Peace out.
At 7:10 pm,
ecowarrioress said…
rabbana aatina fid-dunya hassanataun wa fil akhirati wa qeen azthaban-naar. Oh ive sed tht wrong havent i-- theres supposed..oh SCREW IT, May Allah give you the best in this life and the hereafter. ameen. thumma ameen. (ur type of ppl do istikharah- dnt forget to do dat, start tonight inshallah)
At 10:54 pm,
Tamanna said…
That's a great dilemma to be in. You should thank your lucky stars and then get married. Do the thing that is over in the shortest time possible. You're not cut out for the world of commerce and evil banking
At 9:52 am,
PrincessMeMe said…
fudge- banking masters wil take the shortest time (12months) so may consider that. I definitely know im not cut out for the evil banking world but i keep being directed in that way...
eco- marriage is defo an issue. You know yday i was sitting on my desk and i thought to myself "getting married late, due to career, and having only 2 kids is fine"...OMG!! What the hell is happening to me?!! Shaitaan is so round the corner somewhere...
Issue also because i realised im kinda stuck!! The type of guy i want (firm yet kind, striving only for the deen not dunya, etc)will look at my 'qualifications' and be like i just want a 'simple-girl', thinking that i am career-driven. So no chance in finding a pious-modest-genuine brother. And then on the other hand some liberal-career-obsessed-brother will be well impressed by my status and want to marry me cos he likes the fact that i'm career-driven. Then once we'r married find out that i just wanna be his wife and look after family... seriously, i am stuck! WHO CARES! I guess i have to sort this out first- but you know i like to plan... I don't want to start this actuary thing and then get married and not be able to finish it (you don't knw what majority Sylheti families are like!) or get married and tell my hubby to piss off i have a career to get on with- d'u see what i meean?
I guess Allah(swt)is the best of all planners...i shall do what i do best...leave it in his hands and be happy with whatever outcome.
At 9:54 am,
PrincessMeMe said…
eco- it is a trial and tribulation, rather then a blessing, for me. The reason for which i can't explain (i can but i don't wanna tell you...or anyone)...just trust me, i need saving!!
At 2:36 am,
Not Zahra. said…
assalamu alaykum
You're goign to jimas, right? Perhaps they'll be someone there, wortha try, no?
Wait- kashmiri..thats not bengali..right? non bengalis will be interviewd?
At 2:49 am,
Not Zahra. said…
haha.someone please knock me up. that's just too blatant and gross.
anyway, should i assume this is yor critiera summed up and pass it on to the rest of the world?
At 9:33 am,
ecowarrioress said…
bloody hell kaifa we are going on endlessly abt being skillessness and now your gonna be skilled, wheres the problemo>!?!?! cant help you with a problem you dont confide in me about!!! freakazoid. anyway ur biggest problem is that.... u cant wake up for f*** or even Work!!!!
ps- z is right abt the knock up comment, yukkity yuk.
At 9:47 am,
PrincessMeMe said…
dunno if this classifies itself as a skill?! Dont confide in anyone- told u i need to see a psychiatrist. What is wrong with me- someone call me to wake me up (thanks Z).
Hehe-sorry about that comment. Yep, thats my criteria now...did i mention height? It might count out all Bengalis! Above 5'10".
At 10:43 am,
ecowarrioress said…
well uv got abt 16 less to choose from as most from east london so likely bengalis arrested?!? psychiatrist???! i thought it was psychologist!! anyway childline number is 0800 111 1111 i think...Have to go camden with sisinlaw now, txt if u need anything, im soO sick of that place man!
At 11:14 am,
PrincessMeMe said…
whatever!u sure its not psychiatrist?- whats the difference?
you think i can tell Mufti my issues even though they'r not islamic?! Im sure he'll come with an islamic solution mayb- that would suit me just fine!! it'l b over the phone and i won't tel him that i used to study in Mcr and am doing Islamic finance otherwise he'l know who i am!!
p.s. why is saying 'islamic fascist' wrong? pls explain.
plus, need to ring mufti anyway cos once u move to Leicester would London become a place where you do travel-prayer? He was saying something about where you have your things or something...just ring him.
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